ignite_delight

ignite_delight @ 2007-03-28T16:15:00

2007-03-28T20:17:44Z

my hopes remain high but the results are discouraging.

ignite_delight @ 2007-02-24T16:10:00

2007-02-24T21:12:21Z

"get out and have some fun.
You stand to learn alot through experiences you share with others.
Dont over react to things someone close to you is doing.
There will be a valid reason..."

ignite_delight @ 2007-02-15T13:17:00

2007-02-15T18:18:45Z

last nights debauchary
leading into my current school day
leaves me
loving thrill
lots!

ignite_delight @ 2007-01-30T21:30:00

2007-01-31T02:30:51Z

storytime with DASH

ixchiaroscuro: The train sucks! Tell me a story
beauXtract: i sat on a kitten a few days ago
ixchiaroscuro: Did you break it?
beauXtract: ummm when i was checking something at the registration office at my old school there was a bomb threat in the elevators. we were all asked to evacuate the building. i ran into some old friends and then afterwards ending up running into my old supervisor for nude modeling. i immediatly signed papaer to model at the school for this semester, as a way to make extra money. Then i went back to the registration building and it was fine...no fire... only a 1 hour dispute as to how i dont owe the school 300 bucks. IThey finnaly dropped the fee and i met up with a buddy to smoke. unfortunatly in the month that i avent seen him he has become an intorverted burnout.
beauXtract: after i get home from my now- burntout friends house... i get a text from my friend saying i broke her cats foot when i sat on it.
ixchiaroscuro: Lol damn
ixchiaroscuro: Eventful
beauXtract: she then texts me again calling me a bastard.
beauXtract: i call her back anbd tel her there is no prooof i sat on her cat and that her cat broke her own foot cuz shes stupid and jumps around alot
ixchiaroscuro: Omg
ixchiaroscuro: Lmao...I did that once
ixchiaroscuro: Haha
beauXtract: my friend laughed and told me her cat was fine.
beauXtract: anbd she was only kidding.
ixchiaroscuro: Classic
beauXtract: the end

solidboy.

2007-01-30T16:23:00Z

Aside from still catching up with loved ones,my life has transformed into being wrapped up in books and analyzing its content. I'm also in the process of writing a paper on my experience in London. I feel like I need to unleash wehatever it is that I stored inside me and let this new-found essence help give me clarity; never surrendering to apathy. My hours haver dropped and I got laid off temporarily at the boutique because cold weather is cold on buisness as well. I really want to do art-modeling again but havent even heard back from the lady in charge. I also havent been to manhattan once since I have come back from London ( even though the oppurtunity arose a couple of times). I need to quit digesting and start moving a little bit more. I'm taking a roadtrip this weekend to Rochester and even though its seven hours north from were I actually want to be, the feeling of driving endlessely with good music to your ears and your best friend driving, is a thought that makes me look foward to each day getting closer to that one.

ignite_delight @ 2007-01-24T12:53:00

2007-01-24T17:55:10Z

sometimes, i wish i had a keen attention span.

aside from that, reading "Bacchae" is rather enjoyful.
& Im looking foward to the quality times the weekend has in store.

ignite_delight @ 2007-01-21T17:48:00

2007-01-21T22:49:11Z

London

A renegade intellect.

with no sense of discipline

& a focus on all the good things that make it bad

& all the bad things that make it so good.

ignite_delight @ 2007-01-20T12:13:00

2007-01-20T17:17:05Z

I think i was thriving off the global warming a bit to much these past couple of months.

Its ironic that the day I come back is the day the chill begins to leave its mark.
My hair is longer
my skin is dryer

my insides...just the same.

Purchase better be a good experience. Its weird how comfortable you become with old surroundings that you are leaving behind. The comfort never hits you until you step into new territory. But thats what I've been wishing for all this time. new faces& new grounds.

&I got it.

angel.

2007-01-17T11:40:59Z

i left my heart in London

ignite_delight @ 2006-12-28T15:46:00

2006-12-28T20:52:09Z

Day #5 with the fam.

my holidays were as merry as mery could be. My family on the other hand remains as dysfunctional as ever. My mother entrapped me ( weapon of choice: guilt) & prevented what I think would have been a mentally stimulating trip to Boston. Granted I'll be in London for 2 weeks with my school , come next thursday, but I am the kind of person that needs to seize the moment whenever a quality chance is presented. I'll digress in the end, but I just dont understand why I am latched on by friends&family to the extent that I am. I am not being angsty in the least bit but I really need to enforce my liberation of restraint. It is there & I dont know why it is there and I'm not the one restraining myself which is the saddest part...actually that is a lie. I am restraining myself when I surrender to everybody elses whim&plea. I wish I was raised to be heartless at times. I'll change my clothes and work 6 lovely hours at my job & then head up for yet anither night in O.C. It'll be my 2k6 farewell.

I really just need January 4th to come

ignite_delight @ 2006-12-18T14:21:00

2006-12-18T19:22:26Z

To be blunt:

i cannot comprehend some of my closest friends as of late.

ignite_delight @ 2006-12-13T13:56:00

2006-12-13T17:56:32Z

but to not lose sight on current blessings:

London is coming close.
&my anticipation&excitement grows GREATER.

cope with the OUTLOOK articles.

2006-10-17T13:38:41Z

On the night of September 28th 2006 I hit up Webster Hall to watch Ladytron.
In promoting their new band, "the Witching hour" the band has begun their second round of U.S. tours
They played the nights of the 27th&28th at Webster Hall,
following an after party the night of the 28th at Hiro Ballroom.
& then a free sweet performance @ Diesel, Union Square the following evening.

One may wonder why a band is getting so much praise as of late and the answer is this: LADYTRON'S style in music is absolutely unique and contemporary in it own way. Fitting into electronic/disco genres within the past few decades, that includes bands such as Abba and Human League; Ladytron seems to fit into all different kinds of categories in the age of electronic music, including our current one: Electro clash, which many define it as these days.

The Webster Hall setting was absolutely ideal for the event.

The setting was dark but filled with diverse characters with features that leave one impressed for the time being. The Venue containing steps always leading to new rooms, making it maze-like and looking up at the high ceilings and scattered movie posters, matching up in size within the large walls; all filled with detail, declaration, &design. In the center of it all Ladytron began their performance; leading their audience into a journey of synth&beauty exploding with different lighting effects that oddly enough blended so much within the beats being projected. The crowds surrounding me were a blend of unique&cliche, dancing or simply starting fights for the sake of front row. None of it mattered in the end, because whether you would like to believe it or not, the sounds you were hearing made you dance & be mesmerized by the four members on stage creating them. Performing all their past¤t hits such as: "Mu-tron & "Destroy everything you touch" as well as other intensified tracks like “fighting in built up areas".

The only thing you were left wanting was more.
It was satisfaction with beginning & a peak &an end.

ignite_delight @ 2006-10-16T20:18:00

2006-10-17T01:15:07Z

As an active horror film fan, I come across what many would consider a true flop. The cheesy element to a horror film is somewhat expected but if the movie provides a certain rush of adrenaline which keep you at the edge of your seat and best of all keeps you guessing as to what the next move may be, then perhaps we can say that’s a good horror flick. I thought that way about the Texas Chainsaw Massacre& its remake back in 2003. The film reintroduced the family of cannibals with its one main chainsaw wielding food supplying family member: Leatherface. The remake of the original 1977 cult classic provided the same level of gruesome intensity and twisted the plotlines to provide an unpredictable ride of terror.

In the second film to the new series "Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2: The Beginning" we at first wonder if it is a remake of the ORGINAL SEQUEL which came out in 1986. This version is in fact a PREQUEL to the 2003 version as well as the first prequel in the entire franchise itself. The movie starts of by promising its own tagline of "witness the birth of evil" and showing the audience the filthy birth of Thomas Hewitt in a meat factory. Thomas is a deformed and hideous baby whom is then thrown in a dumpster and then found by the Hewitt family. After years pass and the Texas town in which the family resides in evolves into a ghost town, the Hewitt family refuse to move from their decaying plantation home in the fields and Thomas becomes our infamous villain LEATHERFACE. The film introduces our heroine, Chrissie portrayed by Jordana Brewster and her boyfriend and two friends. They embark on a road trip to embrace life before both Chrissie& her gal pals' boyfriends, get sent off to Vietnam

What they come across is the ghost town in which the Hewitt’s reside in as well a cold-blooded gang of bikers. After the Biker-chicks attempt to kill the teenagers and results in having them get into a real bad car accident, Sheriff Hoyt of the Hewitt clan is introduced to us all and then intercepts the situation by shooting the biker chick and taking the kids( and the dead biker chick) back to his plantation home. The only kid left out of this is Chrissie, because during the accident she somehow managed to end up in a field yards away from the scene, observing all the madness.

Chrissie runs to a bar were she encountered the crazy bikers before and runs into the psycho bike-chicks boyfriend. She tells him she knows were they took his girlfriend and they both trail off to fight off the Hewitt family and save their friends& themselves from becoming dinner.

What you encounter in the next hour is an unbelievable and ridiculous set of events involving the Hewitt Family torturing everyone that crosses their path as they get prepped up for the main meal: Chrissie. I'm not giving away any endings and even though the new settings and faces that the remake brought us in 2003 are still present in TCM: The Beginning, this is one addition to the Texas Chainsaw Massacre series that even lacked its crude element of horror. The endless violence is nothing more than yawn material. There were scenes trying to live up to the original series in the 70's version such as the heroine of the film running through a window to escape being eaten. Just when you think your going to get set up with an awesome showdown between Chrissie & Leatherface, you are only left with a dull fight that will make you roll your eyes in annoyance and conclusion which leave you forever disappointed that you just wasted an hour and twenty minutes of your life.

ignite_delight @ 2006-10-16T01:38:00

2006-10-16T05:38:59Z

"While walking w/ Raf last night around Purchase College, we glanced up @ the stars & it reminded him of something he thought of earlier. Basically ... when we look @ stars, we are actually looking @ the past. A star, or a planet seen in the sky @ night, is actually how it looked years, upon years, upon years ago. We're looking into the past. A star that we see & wish on might not even be in existence anymore. So he made a beautiful point ... that even if planet Earth ceases to exist, if the world really does come to an end, we will not vanish. Somewhere out there in the Universe, some being, some life-form, will look into the sky & still see us, still see our planet- even though it is gone."-Danielle Chillemi

all i need.

2006-10-16T05:36:37Z

I cant really explain why i am addicted to this machine. I reformat my cyber-age distractions with new words&pictures. I do it while im trying to finish some fine reading. You can't read good literature in 2006 without coming across technological distrations which deem useless... like this one.

Quentin Crisp, is my new study. Professor Conelly introduced me to him
Professor Conelly is also known as " the worlds authority on Quentin Crisp"
Really, you do only find some of these things @ RCC.

ANYWAY.

Its 1:32 and i cant sleep. Blame it on the green tea or blame it on the tress.
An old friend that i used to call my big brother just called me to let me know he tried"dope"
Sunday was the first day either of us has had a sip of alcohol in our veins
My mother questioned my reckless actions earlier this evening
I laughed it off & told her to expect it written on public pages.
She got worried &I told her
i
live
quick
she asked if i was safe
wishing deep down inside
that i change my pace.

ignite_delight @ 2006-10-02T01:19:00

2006-10-02T05:37:49Z

"Excuse me ladies...&people."

A photographer asks Lo,Jessi,& myself to take picture
& he refers to ME as:
"people"
The fact that he had braces and immediatly apologized
once
I showed signs
of
being insulted.
Drew me to the conclusion that he was
.....
socially akward.

Just like i bet
he assumed
that I was

A fag.

Sucks to be in his shoes more than mine.

I posed for the fucker.

Afterwards I met up with Lo.
I had her take pictures of me by a
"DO NOT ENTER"
sign.
near the bleachers

//.COMPARE
CONTRAST//.

I took many different poses
holding a green bible.
that a christian man
handed me earlier today!

Its cover matched my sweater

SO WELL.

They say
GREEN

is the color of:
ENVY.

Do you envy a fucking faggot
?
.

7th time he ate it was the 1st time he ate alone.

2006-09-28T22:29:35Z

i plan on going to new levels.
To look back is to entrap.
know that.

cheers.

ignite_delight @ 2006-09-23T00:04:00

2006-09-23T04:04:40Z

beauXtract: i wish i looked 21 instead of 12.
beauXtract:
ix chiaroscuro: lol
ix chiaroscuro: i don't look 21
beauXtract: well u sure get away with it alot more than i do.
ix chiaroscuro: you need to grow some facial hair or something
beauXtract: i dont know if should laugh, agree, or cry to that statement
ix chiaroscuro: lol
beauXtract: i hate facial hair
ix chiaroscuro: i think it's sexy
beauXtract: i hate it on me
beauXtract: thats for sure.
beauXtract: but who am i joking
beauXtract: i only grow chin hair
beauXtract: AHAHAHAHAHAHA
beauXtract: ha.
ix chiaroscuro: lmao

ignite_delight @ 2006-09-22T12:44:00

2006-09-22T16:48:36Z

she brings out the best in me.
& i think thats why mommy loves her so much.

ignite_delight @ 2006-09-20T00:33:00

2006-09-20T04:34:12Z

How does, how does, how does it work

so, little valve stretching messily open, as wide as possible,

all directions at once, sucking air, sucking blood, sucking air-in-blood,

how? On the screen I see the part of me that always loves my life, never tires

of what it takes, this in-and-out, this open-and-shut in the dark chest of me,

tireless, without muscle or bone, all flex and flux and blind

will, little mouth widening, opening and opening and, then, snapping

shut, shuddering anemone entirely of darkness, sea creature

of the spangled and sparkling sea, down, down where light cannot reach.

When the technician stoops, flips a switch, the most unpopular kid in the class

stands off-stage with a metal sheet, shaking it while Lear raves.

So this is the house where love lives, a tin shed in a windstorm,

tin shed at the sea's edge, the land's edge, waters wild and steady, wild and steady, wild.

-Suzanne Cleary

she was creative writing teacher, last semester.

ignite_delight @ 2006-09-12T13:42:00

2006-09-12T17:43:17Z

everytime my friends go out with someone, i see how it benefits ME.

:)

ignite_delight @ 2006-09-11T00:42:00

2006-09-11T04:57:55Z

Certain people around me tell me I need to tame my lifestyle. To stay in & relax. Thats the problem though: I stay & relax and rejuvinate myself and just want to thrive until I simply cannot anymore. I reflect on what has happened in the past week & really there should be no complaints what so ever. I wanted to go out again tonight, actually I was almost certain that I would most defnitly go through it. It would be a festive time at a dancefloor with Dash & whatever other faces the night would introduce me to. I worked from 2-830, relaxed by watching Nip/tuck & then helped out a friend in need for about an hour and before I knew it it was midnight & I realized I had only 10 dollars on me, 6 of which would go thru a toll.Dash then called me and told me the place was packed and I should come. I was yet to shower & freaked over lack of immediate funds. He told me to call him when i figured it all out.

My mother called me on her way back from kingston and asked if i could stay in due to post 9/11 jitters and I freaked out because it was an indirect feeling of restraint which is simply rooted from some unconscious insecurity that is the only factor in this equation that needs to be tamed.

"a real face shown is another mind blown.
give me more.
give me more..."

M

2006-08-27T23:26:48Z

My life consists of Murphys law & Mixed blessings.
& also being a Magnet for shady Motherfuckers.

ignite_delight @ 2006-08-20T13:08:00

2006-08-20T17:09:43Z

Fashion Frenzy 2k6 :East Coast Style.©

The East Coast style for the gay masses has either reached a peak
or transformed into a different sense of image in this Post-2k society. We walk the streets of our beloved New York City and every day it holds a different set of characters and faces. Some of us bear the cliché of trends that the media enforces, while others bear the trendsetting edge in which we are the most
infamous for. There are also those that wear the same outfit everyday for
lack of a better cause and if they're cute&classy we can say they pull it
of; if they’re lame&trashy they become the object of mockery.

Speaking as an individual from Generation Y (our current generation) it
seems that the Gay division consists of a variety of styles and attitudes
that we may not have even seen a decade ago. With shows like Project Runway and Queer Eye or stores like H&M, A&F, DIESEL and A/X prospering immensely within the past few years, it seems we have easier access to adapt to either the current styles or create our own. A good friend of mine described it best as,
"seriously, every form of fashion has a fag."

Based on my perception, we, the young faggies project the following styles in
both masculine and feminine form. Let me begin by introducing our clean
cut preppy boys. Though the prep style has evolved into a more risqué fashion bare-all-look (designer ripped jeans, shirts&tanks... or no shirt at all) we must never forget the clean cut element which is always present. Now this leads to the effeminate counterpart known as a twink'. Defined by many as "prissy, flamboyant, fashionista fags",
your typical twink enwraps himself in drama and belligerence while comfortably sporting his extra tight shirt, sleazy, but overpriced ripped jeans,& designer shades. Though they are the first to down talk or compliment other boys' complexions
and styles, the main rule for a twink is to bottom out for his fellow lover. This is all after
the lovely twink gets a facial piercing that your true fellow punk rocker would LOVE to rip out. Our tops and twinks usually fuel the gym industry to have a chiseled or tight fit
body...NYSC anyone?

This leads us to the next style: The punk rockers. The attitude is as
Bad-ass as the look, but a true punk rocker ALWAYS sticks to their roots.
Punk in itself has a variety of looks within it. For the punk rock fag, instead of buying ripped jeans they DIY it with pride OR steal that sheeiiit. I personally believe if I'm gonna steal, it 's going to be from the corporations that fuel the sweatshops with an icky 'tude towards thier seamsters/seamtresses. Studded belts, spikes, bondage gear, and other intresting contraptions and accessories add to the style . While we're on the topic of bondage gear and S&M the Goth look should be mentioned as it shares common roots with punk rock subculture. Goth fags generally look the same. I'm not going to lie, I was once one when I was 15 or so. The fishnets... the ridiculous amounts of bracelets., THE BLACK&all that shnazz is a common barrier between the punks and Goths; except that punk rockers have a sick joyride attitude and goths mainly just brood because its
'cooooooooooo l'. Depending on the level of vanity for the individual, a
Punk/goth does not place importance on "dress to impress" standards. Rather, they adorn what feels good and resist flaunting their homosexual tendencies while still being raw about it when confronted or even during casual conversation. Another underground baby boy trend to be noticed is the ravers and neo- hippies. Though both trends seem to coincide in gatherings and what not, the vast difference between both is that a raver is SHINING withcandy colored accessories and micro 50 inch wide legged pants( wuttup KIKWEAR& MACGEAR!) while a neo-hippy keeps it real and centered and does not place such grand importance on extravagant styles. Although some may find them looking grungy with a sick band shirt, baggy jeans, and Bergen-stocks, neo-hippies are my favorite because of their lack of desire for the plastic consumerism society tries to implant in our youthful heads. Even though ravers have more of a fashion sense at times, their ensemble does not speak for their thoughts. Both of them tend to be free loving and spirited with such a genuine friendly outlook to their encounters with others. Granted we can blame it on K or E, but who cares?! It's all about being pleasant. Theraver boys can be confused with twinks due to their love for skin-tight clothing,but a twink wouldn't be caught dead in Chelsea wearing a pair of kiks…
unless they were fifteen OR trying to stage some sort of fashion rebellion
to state their "individuality". Whatever the case may be, cute raver boys
such as the previously described are usually hard to find over the age of
18. Now if you combine a twink's fashion sense with a punk's fashion sense&attitude and
a bit of fag, I would say we have a lovely HIPSTER. A true hipster knows what
the hell is up in many areas, especially fashion. The look is essential after all.
I suppose we can surrender to the belief that if we do not fall under any of
the aforementioned categories, we are automatically deemed a hipster.
Hipsters tend to wear either really tight jeans or jeans from the girls
section ( depending on how obnoxious they want to be). They each have their own
preferred flavors of intoxication and will rock out to sweet tunes on the
dance floor. I'm still trying to decide if clichés are a favorable factor in
the hipster scene, but my perception on the hipster fag is that if they
truly are knowledgeable in their film, music, and fashion, then they do not
set the barriers for themselves to speak out or dress up. The main objective
is to be the coolest cats on the block and that’s exactly what a true hipster
does. They observe and if they feel deemed to do so they will conquer...at
least in their own terms. A hipster always has something to say... and
sometimes will be so cool as to just stare and not say anything at all.

We also have our homeboys known as 'homo thugs’. They are loud& proud as well
as gangster. A homo thug usually dresses the part of a ghetto "thug." whatever that really means. Sometimes they are subtle and simply undress you with their eyes or you may be perplexed by how you can combine rainbow gear with FUBU. These peeps are relatively on the down low but we do see them and I'm not going to lie that even though I am not one for "thug"fashion; when I'm not being proclaimed as a "bitch" or a "hoe" , these gents
have a heart of gold.

The true cool is never surrendering to the cliché or the trend, but then again who doesnt say that? You can judge a fag by face value or mind value...but the mind is so under rated these days, so you might as well be aware and look good in your own sense for the eyes to come.

We are the future after all, why not repp it up to kingdom come?
-Rafael Baglietto©